Now that you are out of my life...I'm so much better
You thought that I'd be weak without ya..but I'm stronger
You thought that I'd be broke without ya...but I'm richer
You thought that I'd be sad without ya...I laugh harder
You thought I wouldn't grow without ya...now I'm wiser
You thought that I'd be helpless without ya...but I'm smarter
You thought that I'd be stressed without ya...but I'm chillin'
You thought I wouldn't sell without ya...sold 9 million
I'm a survivor
I'm not gonna give up
I'm not gonna stop
I'm gonna work harder
I'm a survivor, I'm gonna make it
I'm a survivor, keep on survivin'
Thought I couldn't breath without ya...I'm inhalin'
You thought I couldn't see without ya...perfect vision
You thought I couldn't last without ya...but I'm lastin'
You thought that I would die without ya...but I'm livin'
Thought that I would fail without ya...but I'm on top
Thought that it would be over by now...but it won't stop
Thought that I would self destruct...but I'm still here
Even in my years to come...I'm still gonna be here
I'm wishin' you the best,
pray that you are blessed
Much success, no stress, and lots of
happiness
I'm better than that
I'm not gonna blast you on the radio
I'm better than that
I'm not gonna lie on you or yo family, yo
I'm better than that
I'm not gonna hate on you in the magazine
I'm better than that
I'm not gonna compromise my christianity
I'm better than that
You know I'm not gonna diss you on the
internet
'Cause my mama taught me better than that
I'm a survivor
I'm not gonna give up
I'm not gonna stop
I'm gonna work harder
I'm a survivor, I'm gonna make it
I'm a survivor, keep on survivin'
hello there sweetheart!!! <3 well theres been a lot of craziness going on lately but im hanging in there. i heard this song on the radio today and it pretty much describes how im feeling right now so i thought id add it in here! 
Brandon and i still see eachother pretty often... im not real sure if thats a good or bad thing but thats how it is. lastnite mary, i and kevin spent the nite there actually. i had a few too many to drink so i dont remember much but i do know that i didnt do anything stupid or anything that either of us will regret so thats def. a plus. he still talks to her everyday and sees her everyday also but im not w/ him anymore so i cant say much about it i guess. 
as long as we remain friends then thats all i could really ask for. but on a happier note... the luv of my life, Casper Sanders comes home tomorrow til the 18th before he leaves for the summer to go to Boot Camp for the Army. 
I'm going to miss him dearly but at least we will get to spend time together before he goes away. we said we would write also so hopefully that happens. i think im going to get going tho... rainy days like today make me tired. Take care my dears!! xoxo
You know I won't say sorry
Do you know I won't say sorry?
The pain has a bad reaction
A blend of fear and passion
Do you know what it's like to believe?
It makes me wanna scream
